Love is my favourite topic. It has not always been this way, though. In my life, I learned right away that people were not happy, and love was not an experience that I can say I knew. I was on alert all the time because my parents fought a lot. I was often criticized, and I took this very personally. I would look around, see that something was wrong, and then I internalized that emotion believing that something was wrong with me.
I would blame myself and consequently lived in a low vibration energy of shame, guilt, and confusion from a very early age. I fell into addiction, which is a natural progression for low vibration.
Today, with all my personal development and my learning about myself, I can say that I love my life and, even more than that, that my heart is awakened to more love. I see a lotus that is wide open and vibrant.
I was in a meditation session once that blew open my heart. When I looked people in the eyes, I could see their soul of complete love. I would cry every time I looked at someone. It was a very vivid and eye-opening experience—we are all one in love.
In my past, I was all about building a big business, having a ton of money, and owning a big house. When all of that happened, I realized really fast that what I had searched for and worked for was not what I was truly looking for. I was looking for self-acceptance, self-love, and my own internal admiration. I was searching for all of this outside of myself, and until I started getting a sneak peek of myself, I was not moving to wholeness. I want to put it into perspective: earning the money wasn’t the actual issue here. What I was looking for and trying to unearth was the reason and intention that was hidden behind wanting that money. Once you are on a wholesome path with higher vibration energy, all of that comes to you and there is no attachment—only humility, grace, and gratitude.
What I realize is that all of this life and all of the learning we get to experience is for one purpose: to bring us back to love and to wholeness with ourselves and others.
To not judge and divide. To see another as myself, with strengths and weaknesses. To hear another to understand their heart and not to have to fix anything—only to listen. To love another in the compassion of God or Spirit with a heart of pure, unconditional love.